Friday, March 27, 2009

Setiap Kesukaran..

سُوۡرَةُ الشَّر
حبِسۡمِ ٱللهِ ٱلرَّحۡمَـٰنِ ٱلرَّحِيمِ


أَلَمۡ نَشۡرَحۡ لَكَ صَدۡرَكَ (١) وَوَضَعۡنَا عَنكَ وِزۡرَكَ (٢) ٱلَّذِىٓ أَنقَضَ ظَهۡرَكَ (٣) وَرَفَعۡنَا لَكَ ذِكۡرَكَ (٤) فَإِنَّ مَعَ ٱلۡعُسۡرِ يُسۡرًا (٥) إِنَّ مَعَ ٱلۡعُسۡرِ يُسۡرً۬ا (٦) فَإِذَا فَرَغۡتَ فَٱنصَبۡ (٧) وَإِلَىٰ رَبِّكَ فَٱرۡغَب (٨

Al-Inshirah
Dengan nama Allah, Yang Maha Pemurah, lagi Maha Mengasihani


Bukankah Kami telah melapangkan bagimu: Dadamu (wahai Muhammad serta mengisinya dengan iman dan hidayat petunjuk)? (1)
Dan Kami telah meringankan daripadamu: Bebanmu (menyiarkan Islam); (2)
Yang memberati tanggunganmu, (dengan memberikan berbagai kemudahan dalam melaksanakannya)? (3)
Dan Kami telah meninggikan bagimu: Sebutan namamu (dengan mengurniakan pangkat Nabi dan berbagai kemuliaan)? (4)
Oleh itu, maka (tetapkanlah kepercayaanmu) bahawa sesungguhnya tiap-tiap kesukaran disertai kemudahan, (5)
(Sekali lagi ditegaskan): Bahawa sesungguhnya tiap-tiap kesukaran disertai kemudahan. (6)
Kemudian apabila engkau telah selesai (daripada sesuatu amal soleh), maka bersungguh-sungguhlah engkau berusaha (mengerjakan amal soleh yang lain), (7)
Dan kepada Tuhanmu sahaja hendaklah engkau memohon (apa yang engkau gemar dan ingini). (8)


(tetapkanlah kepercayaanmu) bahawa sesungguhnya tiap-tiap kesukaran disertai kemudahan,

Kemudian apabila engkau telah selesai (daripada sesuatu amal soleh), maka bersungguh-sungguhlah engkau berusaha (mengerjakan amal soleh yang lain)

Dan kepada Tuhanmu sahaja hendaklah engkau memohon (apa yang engkau gemar dan ingini)
Oh, good God !

Everybody is trying to defend their acts. Define their beliefs in their actions. Proof themselves to the world.

All by choosing whom to like and whom to discriminate.

Just what ta F is with this mind set??
With response to my sis's post on "miss those moments" entry in her blog, hmm...what do i have that i'd miss i wonder.. i guess, not a thing at the moment.

ya, there are things that i personally enjoy, for instance, having our cousins at home recently for the feast, it kinda strike a chord when they left all the the same time (i love the more the merrier situation). the times that i enjoy with my friends. the ladies nights. the lunch hours. but i hardly dwell too much. it's just something nice at a moment and then it's gone. i hate the fact that nothing is forever. everyone will eventually die, let alone every-thing. people leave you. betray you. your loved ones will leave you. betray you. your sweet times will end. in the end, it is only you, and God. 'Coz only God stays.

some people would rather love and lost, than not love at all. And i personally do no enjoy lost. besides, i have not experienced much love acts in my entire life, so the least to happen is me missing or loving this and those moments from way back when..

i've had two siblings when i was as young as 4yrs old..so, my r/ship with mom and dad, as i would describe is more to an obligation they have towards me than love. not that i'm complaining, but i can't recall the last time i see any loving acts from them towards me. it'd be too weird to have seen one now. but nevertheless, I have always appreciated the effort and sacrifice they put in raising and bringing me up to be who I am today.

money is one thing. i am certainly never going to get used to having my parents handed me monies. they have, however, even when i am working now but i would spend it back on them in the end..or on my other siblings. dad would make it a certain thing to calculate the amount that i owe them down to the very last cent. seriously, this was never a case with any of their other children. it's my pride to pay up my dues down to the very last cent too. heck, i think they are somewhat bitter with the amount of money i have spent when i was in boarding school. money must have been very tight at that time around and i admit i was a big spender there..mostly on food. well, i blame me for not having a good sense of what exactly is money all about. i am in fact very much bitter with my own ignorance with money sense at that time.

Love someone and you'll eventually get hurt. love your things and you're a slave to those things. i guess, when u love and never expect anything in return, then you won't get hurt. love, unconditionally. Is that possible? Will you become somebody's fool by doing so? Somehow, love is never overrated. love can change the world. love makes the world go round. all religions in the world teach us to love. love thou parents, respect thou neighbours.

taking in bubbles is a bloody big step for me, knowing that a cat's average lifespan is just 16 years.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

I just realized

This year will be the last year I'll be in my 20s.



Oh my God.

Now that sounds so big when you put it that way.

But how should/does it impact me, really I wonder.

I feel indifferent but my mind thinks that I am embracing a new meaning in life. Woah. Now that sounds much bigger.


I have been taking things one step at a time. Don't want to miss a thing life offers at the very moment. 18 is the time to understand what relationship is all about, what's the fuss is all about, what caused this and what caused that and is the whole thing really worth it at all.
Then 21, while some or probably many set out for their career path, my aim was to secure a decent pay for life's typical basic needs of a middle income earner.
Then 25 is so cool as I set out to make myself heard. Lay out my rules, my wants, my life, me.

And now...reaching 30 next year and for the next 10years..given that I am not severely affected with the economic downturn,

1. I plan to study a new course of field and complete it of course.
2. I plan to decorate the house.
3. I am aiming for a sports car. Coz 40s in sports car is kinda out of place, although with that Hollywood is putting the effort of creating the image of 40s as the new 30s. I secretly hope they succeed tho.
4. I plan to learn 2 new languages.
5. My relationship with God, is of my business alone.

In philosophy, 30s is the time when we should spread out and do the things that are not tied to our social mainstream. While the social mainstream states that we need to finish school in our teenage years and secure a job in our 20s, 30s start a family, well I'm done with the mainstream pressure.

30s is the time for me to do what I want to do.

May the force be with me.

Facebook - what does your birthday say about you?

Now this is my result.

Thinks far with vision. (If irony, yes, I can agree. A string of correlated events of the past, present and future is very active in my mind. Very.)

Easily influenced by kindness. (Oh yes, indeed. I am sticking to my current job now, despite the dumb hill climbing, very much with regards to the polite multiracial colleagues around me. I feel like I'm owed to their politeness. No, no. No salesmen.)

Polite and soft-spoken. (Now this really depends on the occasion. I curse, occasionally)

Having lots of ideas. (Most of which involve the usage of money..so..It's kinda tricky situation now that we are in recession and hibernation)

Sensitive. (in a non-emotional way. Changes, anomalies, coincidences, yes.)

Active mind. (Indeffinitely)

Hesitating, tends to delay. (On the things that as of no interest whatsoever to me.)

Choosy and always wants the best. (Always? naaah...I believe in God's will. but highly likely all the time, yes.)

Temperamental. (Occasionally. Or rather, I'm meditating. If I may, I quote AR Rahman at the Oscar, "Everyday i have the option to hate or to love. I choose to love" and he did won the most Oscars, didn't he?)

Funny and humorous. (Laughter's the best medicine. Makes us look younger. Boosts good hormones. In fact, I'm loving my laughing lines. They look so good on Hugh Jackman, yes? Hee~)

Loves to joke. (Like, crazy about it.)

Good debating skills. (On things of my interest)

Talkative. (Can be. Hope I am not annoying. I may tend to cut into somebody's conversation to get my instant message out of my active mind heard. Oh, be-have! That's bad habit)

Daydreamer. (I'd rather opt a politically correct term, Imaginative)

Friendly. Knows how to make friends. (Yes. I am blessed with middle class looks so I can easily strike a conversation with any females and males from "lower lot" or upper class looks. In short, if you're too pretty, the guys would usually "harass" you. Insincere. The other guys would usik2 the both of you, which may lead to both of you not talking to each other again. Yea, no, I don't have this problem)

Abiding. (shoot. Does this make me sound less cool? While it can be thrilling to go against the rules but most of the time it is just not worth the adrenaline to have to deal with the authorities after that. Unless if it's your parents then it's worth it to be notty once in a while. )

Able to show character. (I believe I do. I'm liking, I'm lovin, I despise, I'm revolted, stay away from me...do not necessarily have to be verbal)

Easily hurt. (Now this is a defense mechanism. It sets foes from friends. Whom to be friend with and whom should stay away from)

Prone to getting colds. (Once upon a time...blame it on my sinusitis)

Loves to dress up. (Tsk. Most of the time, usually, mostly, only in my mind. I'm too kool for this)

Easily bored. (Absolutely. Most of the time.)

Fussy. (Nopes. I don't recall me being fussy. Oh wait, I think there are closed ones who couldn't stand shopping with my choice of material for my veil. Orang dah tak guna dah kain2 bawai nombot 3 neh!)

Seldom shows emotions. (Except anger, amusement or disgust? Yeah)

Takes time to recover when hurt. (A longgg longgg time, baby. Forgiven but not forgotten)

Brand conscious. (It's a curse)

Executive. (What does this exactly mean I wonder)

Stubborn. (Occasionally. Highly unlikely)
They have never seen what really happened. With their own two eyes. The string of incidents. Heart breaking. Heart aching. Heart hardened.

Mouth full of foul words tossed proudly at my parents. No regrets. Never any. The incident kept on repeating.

They are never scarred.

They can still talk to the bitch.

They can still accept the bitch.






No, they have never seen the scarred memories with their own two eyes.

Sakit

Did it ever occur to you that there are people around you who can be quite a bitch. and enjoying themselves while at it.

I really don't understand why there are people who define their lives around negative vibes. What kind of twisted people who jumped at every opportunity of creating a negative vibe?

Monday, March 02, 2009

tsk..bubbles..

Nak main, tapi sangat mengantuk....


Our Helen

Nickname for my GPS device, thanks to K/Sharipah, Farah, Didirinie and Sapinie.


It's a product of GPS Bay and special offer to Citibank Shell credit card. The order arrived at my workplace just a day before we drove to KL. Godsend.



The idea we had initially was the device would arrive in at least another week's time to almost 2 months on the date of request order.



Well, I was imagining how God decided to make us girls happy by arranging for the package to arrive 24hrs before time of departure. Most of all, of how much or whether we, girls, would wonder and praise Him for the miracle.


We love it and impress with it at the same time. Seriously, the journey from Kelang Lama to Bandar Baru toll was filled with awe and amusement with the device. It recognized the Jalan Sg Ular and alternative routes to Bukit Merah. Along the way, Helen kept on reminding, "Please slow down, please slow down." I wonder if she is set with certain speed limits based on the type of roads we are at. I turned the speed warning off after stopping at Bukit Merah rest area. It was beginning to get on our nerve.


It is Godsend all right. It is able to quickly renavigate in case we took a wrong turn or chose an alternative route.



It's pretty handy and although there are those people out there posting all those funny and tedious requirements they have on a GPS of their choice in internet forums, I'd say bullshit. Are you that dumb with directions, seriously?






This GPS i have is more than enough. We drove, on 14th February, with 5 people in the car, from IKEA with my almost fuel warning Gen2, taking the shortest route, traffic jam in the middle of Bukit Bintang with my fuel warning car, some Chinese concert street celebration on the street (they have got to have a concert on the street jugak2!), curse the bloody hotel who rammed by car front lip, U-turn back to the entrance of the hotel, stuck in traffic jam, u-turn to the next hotel, stuck in traffic jam. Then at night, refuel the car RM20 in Bukit Bintang, drove to Danau Kota, traffic jam, back to Bukit Bintang, round2 Modestos and the district areas, traffic jam, the next day to Jalan TAR, Sogo, next day to KLCC..and we only stopped for refuel upon entering the hiway back to hometown on Monday late afternoon.

I am not really familiar with KL roads and expressways but this device made the journey somewhat a breeze (despite the jams). It is soothing that all i had to do was drive. My company of girls were also not stressed out on keeping their eyes on turnings or buildings or signboards, they just need to feast their eyes on the pondans scenes around Modestos.

A couple of things I would like to explore more on this device is Petrol stations and speed traps.

So far so good. I've been recommending the device to other people.

So i've been tagged

by siti.

Demmit.

macam budak-budak.

" Once you've been tagged, you have to write a post with sixteen random things, habits or goals about you. At the end, choose six people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. Don’t forget to leave a comment (“You’re tagged!”), and to read your blog, you can’t tag a person who tagged you. Since you can’t tag me, let me know when you've posted your blog, so I can see your weirdness. "
why da hell is 16 anyway?

so just for the sake of it, here goes..without any certain orders of importance..sit back.

1. If money was never an issue, I'd have all the crazy gadgets that caught my attention in T3 magazine. and use them definitely !

2. If money was never an issue, my 4x4 would be a slate gray metallic suzuki vitara or blue toyota rav. my sports car would be blue-black mazda rx8. my sedan would be mitsubishi lancer maroon, my road trip with blue-black Nissan Murano. I would certainly keep my existing orange Gen2 :D

3. Wishing a thousand million times to be a guy. I want to ride power bikes and feel the vibration of the engine cruising on the road of all sorts of pavements. And I definitely don't want to worry about getting raped. I don't have to be rimas being preyed upon stangers eyes while going out and about, jogging, sports, eating, driving. I can walk the life of a predator instead of the prey. I can be invisible anytime I want. I don't have to worry about an iron while travelling. I don't have to bring extra luggage due to bras and tudungs. I can go out freely at night. Less chance for me to be cheated by car/bike mechanics. I'd learn about engines and cars and bikes from experienced mechanics. I can wear caps and t-shirts and three-quarter pants to places which require me to drive to get to. I can wear t-shirts and three quarter shorts to sidai baju or simply play with my cat in my house compound or getting the letters from the postbox and I definitely don't have to run for cover because I have guests at the door (demmit!).

4. Annoyed with men in general, don't have any expectations on men, sceptical close to vengeful hatred. mat rempit, men. snatch thieves, men. rapists, men. child molesters baby rapists, men. robbers, men. reckless drivers,men (women are dangerous drivers, mind you). gangsters, men. why prostitutes exist, men. ridiculous and nonsense control over women to satisfy their male ego, men. generally abusive, men (fuck Chris Brown). what else ??!!
Noticed, I did not mention about men being insensitive yada yada yada those things that girls complain about coz those are not real problems to me.

5. Have seen, found and praised a few men worth admiring, one of them is Mahathir.

6. Wish I'm taller by another 10cm. People take taller women more seriously. Taller women struggle less at getting their message heard. Taller women out there should realize this advantage they have and start using it for the benefit of yourself and the people around you.

7. Mastering another 2 foreign languages is a goal.

8. Ya, I curse ! Occasionally, I repeat, depends on the occasions. Ingat cursing (like smoking) sociologically halal utk men saja ka??

9. My imagination is good in fact too good thus I cannot, may I repeat, I cannot watch ghost movies or any movies that depict ghostly actions in them. Exceptional case for Puntianak Harum Sundal Malam, I think it is a good movie especially on the epic settings. Puntianak sundal 2 dah merapu dah.

10. Boycotting coke and McD. For real. And urging friends and other people to do the same on continous basis.

11. Don't really watch tv. Prefer movies andbuy dvds for fav series. The last thing I wanna have is a lembu-cucuk-hidung type of relationship (and this is) especially with...a stuff...so unnecessary.

12. Can't help but admiring all the beautiful physical marks that crossed my path. Let it be things, people men and women equal, cars, bikes, animals...will definitely be categorized..a beautiful cat, a pretty horse, a handsome hound..a sexy sport rims and for the sake of sounding so lame, i have to still say that brad pitt is such a work of art..

13. Pretty face should come with pleasant attitude to my standard. No, I don't have a mom's taste for a menantu perempuan. Don't sweat.

14. I wish a thousand million times to be a millionaire. (with a strong buying power of course..kalau mcm duit pokok pisang nk wat mende)

15. What I do, my prayers, my faith, are rather personal between me and God. And will be, between me and God. And in the end, I am judged in front of God, by God Himself. not you, nor my parents, nor friends nor foe. I am furiously insulted if asked to show and tell to prove that I am this or that.

16.

There. Try tagging me, one more time.