Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Day 01 – Your favourite song

Right. 




My favouritism comes with addiction. I'd swallow the pills too much till too much is just too much. Most recently, I have been listening to this song till I can't have it on repeat anymore. 

Gravity - Sara Bareilles. 

Something always brings me back to you
It never takes too long
No matter what I say or do
I still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone


I like how I can relate this song to addiction, or a love/hate relationship. Not limiting it to a relationship with someone, as in your love interests, or any of your family members or your bffs. 

You hold me without touch
You keep me without chains
I never wanted anything so much
Than to drown in your love and not feel your reign

Also, it isn't limited to just on people, it could be a habbit..porn or gaming addiction, for instance. Or obviously when we mention addiction, it is usually pointing to a substance, alcohol, drugs, cigarettes, caffeine, root beer floats, cakes creams and creme brulees. 


Set me free, leave me be
I don't wanna fall another moment into your gravity
Here I am and I stand so tall
I'm just the way I'm supposed to be
But you're on to me and all over me
But all in all, it is about desires. And during this particular season of my state of mind, i'd like to relate it to our own personal capital vice/s. It may be worth to mention the typical 7 deadly sins, wrathgreedslothpridelustenvy, and gluttony.

You loved me because I'm fragile
When I thought that I was strong
But you touch me for a little while
And all my fragile strength is gone

I think the biggest and most common capital vice would be, lust. Our desires for more things we thought would fulfill whatever it is that we felt are missing in our life. Mistaking wants with needs. 


Set me free, leave me be
I don't wanna fall another moment into your gravity
Here I am and I stand so tall
I'm just the way I'm supposed to be
But you're on to me and all over me


But I think it would be hard for those who struggle between their natural desires and what is deemed as wrong by religion. My faith is in the verse that goes something like this, how do we expect heaven if we are not tested here on earth. I believe overcoming vices is a test from God, should you fail, the consequence is dire.


I live here on my knees
As I try to make you see
That you're everything I think I need
Here on the ground

I think, legalising LGBT rights is about falling in to our vices. But what if you lust for someone you should not? Is it the devil? The devil can only whisper words of encouragement but if he were able to create the feeling, then, as he had said to prophet Muhammad pbuh, then no one will be left out from turning against God.


But you're neither friend nor foe
Though I can't seem to let you go
The one thing that I still know
Is that you're keeping me down
You're keeping me down

So, I think, it is possible to be born gay or the believe of being born in the wrong body. It is as possible as having various fears and phobias, some have it, many don't. There are too many people in human history affected by this for it to be unreal. Even Marxist, such strong power and ideas it once was, could not stand the test of time.


You're on to me, on to me and all over
Something always brings me back to you
It never takes too long


Nevertheless, you are only responsible for your actions, not your preference. Everyone has their own cardinal sins. You won't be tested with anything beyond your ability. Whether you act on your natural vices, whatever or whoever they are, is your responsibility. My faith is, being rewarded here and the afterlife should I stay patient and pass the tests laid out for me. So help me, God.

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