Big City Life - Mattafix

listen to this song..

http://www.huabianxia.com/newcity/mybbview.php?fid=4&tid=84180&fpage=35

Big City Life,
Me try fi get by,
Pressure nah ease up no matter how hard me try.
Big City Life,
Here my heart have no base,
And right now Babylon de pon me case.

People in a show,
All lined in a row.
We just push on by,
Its funny,
How hard we try.

Take a moment to relax.
Before you do anything rash.

Don't you wanna know me?,
Be a friend of mine.
I'll share some wisdom with you.
Don't you ever get lonely,
From time to time
Don't let the system get you down

[Chorus:]
Big City Life,
Me try fi get by,
Pressure nah ease up no matter how hard me try.
Big City Life,
Here my heart have no base,
And right now Babylon de pon me case.

Soon our work is done,
All of us one by one.
Still we live our lives,
As if all this stuff survives.

I take a moment to relax,
Before I do anything rash.

[Bridge:]
The Linguist across the seas and the oceans,
A permanent Itinerant is what I;ve chosen.
I find myself in Big City prison,
arisen from the vision of man kind.
Designed,
to keep me discreetly neatly in the corner,
you'll find me with the flora and the fauna and the hardship.
Back a yard is where my heart is still I find it hard to depart this Big City Life.

[Chorus]
Big City Life,
Me try fi get by,
Pressure nah ease up no matter how hard me try.
Big City Life,
Here my heart have no base,
And right now Babylon de pon me case.

- this song will remind me a lot of this place..definetely for us all here

bad teeth

gosh! my teeth hurt..no..my gum actually..bad tartar developed..and its eating my gum now..damn it..one of the first things..when i reached home..see the dentist..and then cut my hair..

looking at the brite side..at least im taking less soft drinks..bad for ur health anyway..and i loose my appetite..

fucking idiot
keep on repeating the same bloody mistake

gloomy day

30th Jan 2006, Monday
Villach

woke up to a familiar smell today...something from quite a long time ago..something from home..still trying to recognize where i used to live with that smell while i was in the shower..took me a whole 25mins in there...


kulim has a different smell..austria has a different smell..so does italy...my time in kelantan was a different smell..so did the time in pre-U and U..still, i couldn't recognize where that smell came from..

i feel..sober..maybe coz it's monday..and plus the fact that i'm still having this cold..that should contribute a certain amount of percentage..and plus..i've slept for almost 10hrs..

it's just -4C this morning..but as if the weather is set to my moods..the haze is thick..visible eyesight falls to only 20metres..

great, my colleagues are going to note on this change of moods, they're going to be concern..they're going to be asking..but they know when not to ask any further...the girls have been wonderful..cook me vege porridge..pushed me to see the doc...reminded me on the meds everyday..boiled me chrysantemum tea and barly when i was having this cold over the weekend..concern on what and when i eat..'took' me to this kebab place..said i need some real meat..well, i've been almost a dedicated vegetarian for almost 2months now..the turkey meat is great..almost too much for me or maybe my stomach shrunk..

i've lost 5kilos so far..30 more days to go..still living (not surviving..). this week is going to be pretty fast..we'll be going to regensburg, germany tuesday afternoon for work..coming back on thursday afternoon for friday working day here in villach..and the very nite, to munich, germany for the weekend...both travel by train..6 hours and 5 hours consequently..be back on late sunday afternoon..another 10hrs of sleep and another new week to kill..

something i read somewhere...

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"The minute I heard my first love story
I started looking for you,
not knowing how blind that was.
Lovers don't finally meet somewhere.
They're in each other all along." – Jelaluddin Rumi

That was written in 1246. Think of it. 1246! A totally personal observation from an Afghan, and yet still so resonant with the basic human desire to find love that it hurts even today in 2005.
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Yeah..!!

OK...i admit, i was loosing my voice yesterday..and worse last night..tonsilitis attack! i will usually develop a fever at the same time..but, again.. i managed to have it 'delayed'..for the third time.

Feel much better this morning..thanks to some great thoughts that keep me warm all day..

in my mind...electric guitar..full bass..oohh...
el-e-vationnn!!!

High, higher than the sun
You shoot me from a gun
I need you to elevate me here

A corner of your lips
Is the orbit of your hips
Eclipse
You elevate my soul

I've got no self control
Been living like a mole now
Going down, excavation

Higher now, in the sky
You make me feel like I can fly
So high
Elevation!

A star
Lit up like a cigar
Strung out like a guitar
Maybe you can educate my mind
Explain all these controls
Can't sing but I've got soul
The goal is elevation

A mole
Digging in a hole
Digging up my soul now
Going down, excavation

Higher now
In the sky
You make me feel like I can fly
So high
Elevation !

Love
Lift me out of these blues
Won't you tell me something true
I believe in you

A mole
Digging in a hole
Digging up my soul now
Going down, excavation

Higher now
In the sky
You make me feel like I can fly
So high

Elevation !
Elevation !
Elevation !
Elevation !
Elevation !

-U2, OST Tomb raider

Time of your life

for a dear friend, whom i've hurt so bad

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the rod
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time

It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf of good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth, it was worth all the while

It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life
I hope you had the time of your life

-green day

Prayers and faith

If God answers your prayers, he is increasing your faith. If he delays,he is increasing your patience and, if he doesn't answer, he has something better for you... So always be happy in what ever comes your way
.
new car..
new job..
new house..
new..

plenty for me to handle..i don't think i am ready to face it if everything is taken away from me..and yet, i'm still asking for more..things i don't think any ordinary people would ask for..is it too much of me..

..keep the faith..and keep on praying..

Brain freezing cold..!!

dats the heater the kitten is holding on.

the same kinda traditional heater i have in my room here.

OK...as forecasted by the weather report on the radio yesterday, yeah..the temperature hits below -20C this morning..and it's -23.5C..i have always been wearing only my tee and jacket..but today, i have my sweater on as well..so 3 layers when i'm outside the building..

my tonsil is beginning to feel the effect of the cold..i took extra precautions..early..don't want it to interfere with my work..(although both my mentors have been on MC for a week and 3 days now..)
was walking fast from the parking lot to the building this morning..felt the mucus in my nose frozen..my breathes was that of a dragon's..i've got my fever 'delayed' twice so far..i hope i can have it 'delayed' again..

Some of the cars here..

Cuba hampa tgk honda2 yg depa jual kat austria aka europe laa..i dok tgk iklan tv ja..coz org2 kat sini lagi byk guna keta2 german..
http://www.honda.co.at/

Civic 2006 : http://www.honda.co.at/content/car/15165_41354.html --> yg nie la latest paling dahsyat..buat aku nganga depan tv time dinner sorang2..serupa concept car wohh…admire gila..
Accord limo : http://www.honda.co.at/content/car/15165_41908.html
S2000 : http://www.honda.co.at/content/car/15165_5768.html

This is the car im currently driving to work,
Vw passat wagon : http://www.vw.com/passatwagon/index.html
Buruk kan? Hehe..mmg sgt x best pun..mcm wagon buruk..x stabil masa drive kat autobahn..so far aku dah tekan until 160kmh with this car and the renault..tu ja la..the guys dah tekan sampai 180kmh..but winter pun, xleh tekan deras2 sgt..habih tyre worn out..now, keta suma guna winter tyres so..lebih tebal and 'kasar' compare to normal tyres...

And this one I pernah drive for the 1st month kat sini…both cars are better than vw..maybe coz depa bagi vw yg x best..anyways, both cars best and tough, but I like scenic btr coz yg nie smart car..lampu bukak tutup sendiri..boleh set auto-cruise..x payah tekan minyak la on the hi-way..(kalau kat msia nie keta jenis nie mahal laa..gen-2 pun ada this option, but xdak dlm list pun bila nk beli keta..tatau la kalau utk export saja..)
http://www.renault.at/RenaultSITe/cars/scenic_j84_mj2/home/index.html
And
http://www.renault.at/RenaultSITe/cars/laguna_ph2_k74/home/index.html

One more thing, dah berapa kali terserempak dgn 'Kembara' and 'Satria' but if course..they aree 'renamed' as 'Daihatsu' and 'Mitsubishi' ..
I am not sure on the difference..but i'm pretty damn sure that they are equipped with air bags and abs..

Local Colleague : I can't believe M'sian cars don't have air bags..this is safety we are talking about...
let's see...what does that make me feel...cheap..? in a way..yea, i do feel that way..

-19.5 Degrees Celcius

YEAHH!! BRING IT ONN!!

This is the lowest point we have achieved in Austria...so far..but the winter olympic goes on ;)
Was talking to one of the local colleagues..he was saying..the winter this time around is more extreme than they had ever faced in years..he can't even remember the last time they had so much snow in winter..

Local Colleague 1 : due to the situation in Russia, Austria is affected as well..it is forecasted that the winter will be prolonged till April...it will skip spring and go straight to summer..
M'sian Colleague : huh?? Skip spring..? Can mehhh? You can skip the season? I can't imagine wohh...! (she doesn't mind retaining her accent with the local colleagues here..)

Well, the news on tv has been reporting on the conditions in russia.. -30C..looks pretty bad..it's freezing everywhere...people are using their ski-ing 'tools' to 'walk'..but the lowest here in Austria will be around -20C...

kavitha :
Malaysia's weather is warm and sunny as asual !
I'm freezing in my office here even tough it's only 17 degrees celcius..I can't imagine -20..how you guys survive there? Do you go outdoors? Does the vehicle start?


Good questions, really..

It is sunny..u know..surprisingly..u have to put on ur sun glasses to drive at noon till 3pm..but it aint hot..very cold..like..it's biting ur bones..(can I say that..but its like that..) ur face freeze..u cant laugh too much..and when u talk,u will notice that ur jaw jadi keras sikit if u are exposed outside of the building for an hour or so...and ur fingers...very painful...sangat sakit..imagine this..hold an ice cube in ur bare hands for a while and see how painful it gets..your toes..id say I am very very lucky to have invested in a pair or timberland boots..they may not save me from slipping..but they surely keep my feet away from the biting cold..the cold does bite..trust me..it is very,very mean...and my nose is still bleeding from the day I arrived here till today..not too much..but a lil bit..(me la..i don’t know about other ppl..) ..i've developed acnes on my face..even worse than the last time I was swimming at that dirty public pool...i'd go out for lunch at the canteen..walk in the sun..and in the cold for about 10mins and when I wipe mu face with a wet tissue, it is so dirty..now im not taking my face for granted..but still, my extra care is just u guy's daily care at home..toner and moisturiser..hahah! And ur skin at the other part of ur body..man..u have to apply a lot of moisturizer...i mean, the skin on your whole body...(think of your nipples too, fren..)..it's flaking..and it hurts..when u take ur bath or sometimes when it comes in contact with ur clothes..and yea..ugly..but no, I haven't reached that stage, my dear..

The local guys are saying that they are not used to this kinda weather as well...as opposed to what we used to think that, hey, since they live here then it is not that bad for them..but hey, it bites them as bad...and half of the office are catching cold n fever..four of us malaysians are still holding on..one of my colleagues was saying.."must be the chillies we eat at home.." hahah!

And yea..the vehicles do start...europian cars..damn...they are so tough..u can feel dat if u test drive savvy u know..i did like 150km/h at the autobahn..well, italy was not freezing..so..speed up..!! I've driven renault scenic and laguna..now im driving VW passat wagon..wagon...sgt x best..all cars are using diesel here...and the price/liter changes everyday..u know, something to do with gas in the EU..i don't know...and diesel..that must be why I developed them acnes..somehow, u don’t feel the dirty air u inhale..u know..but it's quite dirty..it's like..its cold and the air couldn't really move..it's stuck at the earth surface...(maybe not as dirty as in m'sia..but the fact that the air is not as free flow as in m'sia..so..u know..)

Above everything else...i love looking at the fashion in stores...shopping, window or real shopping...itu mmg wajib..the jackets..ladies and men, mind you...and the boots..man..if u're a boots lover then u'll go crazy...and so far..i'm not complaining much..just 'feeling' the season..u know..and live to tell for you guys..

Above everything else, can't wait to go home really..

HAH!! There I let it all out!

Wonders

Villach, Austria
13th January 2006



I bought some eggs earlier this week..no, plenty of eggs actually, considering they're for me alone..(but the due date is up to end of this month, so, no big deal..save me a lil trouble carrying eggs during the weekly grocery shopping..)

Anyways, I stuffed the 15 biji eggs into my bag..(they don't provide plastic bags mind you..nor paper bag..u have to carry them or use your own bags..) and last night, when I was making dinner for my ownself, I cracked this one egg and to my surprise..


Well, actually, the egg has been cracked in my bag, but due to the cold weather plus the refrigerator, it turned into, hard-boiled egg..or rather..hard-cold egg…
And second encounter is..i love orange…limau chinese new year so I called, I can eat them like eating kuaci..so, I bought a bunch of them oranges…well, duh..orange is orange right…but to my surprise again..it's purple in colour....but tastes the same..lucky..

You Get Me - Michelle Branch

So I'm a little left of centre
I'm a little out of tune
Some say I'm paranormal
So I just bend their spoon
Who wants to be ordinary
In a crazy, mixed-up world
I don't care what they're sayin'
As long as I'm your girl
Hey, you are on my side
And they, they
Just roll their eyes

You get me
When nobody understands
You come and
Take the chance, baby
You get me
You look inside
My wild mind
Never knowing
What you'll find
And still you want me
All the time
Yeah, you do
Yeah, you get me

So what if I see the sunshine
In the pouring rain
Some people think I'm crazy
But you say it's okay
You've seen my secret garden
Where all of my flowers grow
In my imagination
Anything goes
I, I am all you want
They, they just read me wrong

You get me
When nobody understands
You come and
Hold my hand, baby
You get me
You look inside
My wild mind
Never knowing
What you'll find
Still you want me
All the time
Yeah, you do
'Cause you get me

Hey, you are on my side
They, they
Just roll their eyes
Yeah, yeah, yeah

'Cause you get me
When nobody understands
You come and
Take the chance, baby
You get me
When none of
The pieces fit
You make sense of it
You get me
You look inside
My wild mind
Never knowing
What you'll find
And still I want you
All the time
Yeah, I do
'Cause you get me
Yeah, oh, yeah, oh

damn..!

i totally forgot...how am i suppose to let you know when the news was never registered in my memory..