8th June

Like aggressive weeds, commitments are taking over your social life right now, and your fun free time is at risk of getting totally blocked out. This cannot stand. Prioritizing fun over responsibility may seem counterproductive, but it's not. Remember what all work and no play does to a person? Make more of an effort to put balance in your life. Pull back on the work-related duties and free up more of your time -- to get the solace you need, get the time you need.
(now only it is mentioned? i have lost most of my social life like more than a month ago.. whaddaheck, it's not always right..even if it is, such coincidence..)

Pay close attention to the dynamics and the quality of energy in your relationship, from the most mundane interactions to the most exciting. You'll notice a pattern that will seriously illuminate matters.

7th june

In a quiet conversation you will reveal more about yourself than you had planned, but don't worry -- you're in very trustworthy company. Confessing your ideas and secrets will feel liberating, and they will also be a balm for someone else's hurting heart. This person will now be able to return to a more realistic life. Shared experiences connect you with others -- even those who used to intimidate you. Remember, what you feel is just as valid as what they feel.
(ayu, this reminds me of your offer...)


You and your lover may have to do the long distance thing for a while, but it's not a bad situation at all. In fact, once you get used to it, you'll see some immediate advantages that outweigh the disadvantages.

Hm.

been three weeks..

..since i spent the last nite at my own house..


empty..
empty..
empty..

option..choice..choose..planning..

i don't feel like leaving, again..
..what am i looking for..? money?
am i really happy?
it's tempting..but somehow, i have never really made up my mind or showed some real interest on the offer..
now i see why..
is that what i really want?
do i feel like doing it?
is it worth it?
gaining the money, career..
but leaving what matters most behind,
i've done that, during that critical time..
it hurt..
i don't think i can stand being away, again..

i keep on telling myself,
at the end of the day,
it's happiness that matters..

*it's about having 1901 new york chicken with a pleasant company in gurney after a movie
*it's about eating ice cream with someone you love at gurney drive
*it's about having kfc by the beach with dat someone
*it's about carrefour day on sunday with dat someone
*it's about mcd's sundae whenever you feel like it, with dat someone

imagine the time, the talks, the laughters..
come to think of it, i wana do all these rather than being away for money and career..

options lay open
it's about making choices
choose..
for what you want..
for your future..
for what matters most..
it's all about planning..