Happy BirthDay, Ayu !!

it was on the 25th March. May all your wish come true, of course, as my birthday card from you said, not all of our wishes are the best for us. God has His own arrangements for each and everyone of us.


...Gosh i can't remember anyone i kept in touch for this long and still wishing birthday greetings. You should feel lucky, u know. i am really baDD at keeping in touch. ;)

My diary for today..

It's been a really full day for me. Just thinking of writing it down..

7.00am - woke up. prayers, bathe, prepared for work.
7.40am - drove out to work
7.55am - arrived. after waiting for 5mins, thank God i managed to get a parking space beside the building
8.05am - arrived at my desk. setup the workstation.refreshed mail.
8.20am - breakfast. one scoop of nasik goreng and another scoop of bihun. i never forget to squeeze some chilli sauce. can never take the taste of the food at the canteen for granted.
9.45am - started working.
12.00pm - lunch. picked up frens in old company.
1.15pm - back at my workstation.
2.45pm - prayers.
3.00pm - back to work.
5.30pm - gym time.
6.45pm - heading home.
7.15pm - arrived home. straight from work, took me about a decent half an hour. the time it needs for me to walk to the other side of the building, change the in house shoes, security check, walk to the car, paused at the guard house to scan out. traffic lights and of course, traffic. there, 7.15pm. take a quick bath. i havent performed the asar prayers yet. oops. my bad.
7.25pm - asar prayers. bertuah betoi. next time kena smayang dulu before p gym. ingat sempat nk balik rumah. tak sangka sampai half hour even tak singgah mana2 dulu.
7.30pm - laundry, one load.
8.00pm - prayers. prepare to go out for dinner.
8.15pm - dinner.
9.05pm - arrive home from dinner. sidai baju. kemas bilik, angkut tilam2 from my room to the room downstairs (the heavy rain flooded half my room including the bed last thursday, so i was sleeping japanese style. tak sempat nk kemas last weekend, had to perform my due diligence balik rumah my parents as soon as possible). haven't got the time to lipat baju yg bertimbun from last weekend's laundry.
9.30pm - prayers.
9.50pm - connecting to the internet. checked my 017, damn, miss-calls from office, couldn't help it, had to check my biz mail. replied one or two emails. write this blog entry. (for some reason,everything is in german. must be the problem in the connection. i bet, i might have to paste this entry and adjust it later, GINA (company line) connection problem.
10.25pm - now. i'm logging off. trying to read a new book i bought last week from borders, one or two chapters. trying to sleep early max, 11.30pm. i haven't had any rests !

i wish..

1. office hours is 9am to 5am
2. i only need 5hrs of sleep everyday. heck, somebody told me mahathir only needed 4hrs of sleep everyday.

God bless my parents, family and you and your family. May God bless the ones in need and in trouble. Maybe God protect us from His fury for we are sinners and often forgetful.

my personal opinion on..local movies..at this moment

Just watched a short preview on the latest movie..supposedly, movie for awards type..well, i strongly believe that a preview should trigger potential audience..try this one,

"WEI MOKHSEN APER KO MENGENDAP KAT ATAS POKOK TOU??!!"

an about 15sec scene of a short preview, focusing on this boy tercangak2 on top of a tree, sah2 dok skodeng sorang girl dalam bilik. if i am not mistaken, he could be charged over this, right? sexual harassment? stalker? i don't know.

..can somebody tell me why should i be interested in a movie that potrays a pervert?

as of now, i am so not a potential audience. am i the only one? i wonder.

oh dear local movies, local movies..

ok, first of all, i have to admit, i am one of those people who seems to be complaining but no suggestions. now that i have, let me start with a list of my complains.

First of all, local movies..focusing on malay movies for awards type, they just can't seem to avoid from this one particular scene :: violence on women :: rapes or almost being raped.

here's to name a few movies with a clear potrayal of violence against women;

embun - rape
sepet - almost raped

puntianak harum sundal malam (two times can u believe it! ) - almost raped. ended up the 2nd time the same lady was killed. sampai jadi hantu lah. as if, moral of the story is, see what raping can do to you.

Then, as oppose to government and law enforcer's courage to handle the mat rempit issue (there was a suggestion i read in the news to build roads with a kind of pavement that supposedly will discourage the feeling to speed on them. i wonder if they will use the money from the tax payers. regardless, wouldn't this be a waste of money? anyway, they are, trying to curb this problem), but thanks to this one low and stupid movie, Remp-It, celebrating the rotten life of this group of youngsters. I just don't get it.

Gosh!! At least Tokyo Drift made wearing seatbelts so stylo.

Don't get me started with the quality local cartoons..but just a short comment, i wonder why, tom n jerry or mickey mouse in the 60s are much much smoother that local cartoons in the 21st century? and please, oh please stop with the alih suara. It SUCKXX biGG time !!

and also, harith iskandar.

first there was this stupid 'bendul'. a clear imitation of 'mr bean' and yet he dared not to admit that. (i am not sure if he ever admitted that later, but i will keep in mind that he did not admit it the first time he was asked about this in the newspaper).

second, here's current, 'late night with harith iskandar' or is it how it was called? another clear imitation, of 'late night with david letterman'. i am so fucking sick. i wonder if his homework on this show is watching late night with david letterman and pick up his script, style (definitely, it's happening already) or perhaps, topics. cheap skate.

There i've said it. Now i'm ready for my isya' and hop into bed. Peace.

i have no big issue with what i'm doing at work. but i hate the fact that i have to get up early in the morning. it's so not my thing. tho it's not that early but being here at 8am, i hate that. i have always skipped the 8am classes in school.

Gawd !! I need parking space !

I wonder whadda f**k the night shift guys are still doing in the office. They are occupying the nearest parking lot to the building. no only that they have worked for 12hrs, but it was already 8.30am and they cars are still there. crazy people rot in the fab !

my personal opinion on..

Bridge to Terabithia.

I watched this movie last weekend. planning to watch 300 but i had my 17yr old sis tag along and 300 is 18PL so..i opted for Bridge to Terabithia.

Wathing this movie makes me wonder somehow, infact, it makes me, somehow...believe that there are actually things that i can do that give me better satisfaction than doing a desk job like what i'm doing right now.

It doesn't makes sense at first, but i thought, it's a kids' movie so whaddaheck, leslie (the girl) and jess (the boy) close their eyes but have their minds wide open and create their own fantasy world. i was watching the movie assuming that it is just another kids' movie, but as i continued with the story, i noticed that the characters began to talk about stuffs that i did not talk about when i was at their age. it's about their minds at their age..it really gets to my interest.

1.

jess - asks leslie about her scuba diving, like the essay she wrote in class.
leslie - she never went for scuba diving in her whole life..she just,..made it up.

jess - "so, you lied?"

leslie - explains that it is not a lie and that she made that up and that it's fiction.

hm..true. lies are accepted in fiction. Jess saw it as a lie coz everybody, at that age, writes an essay focusing with whatever that they see and do in their daily lives or watch on tv. but Leslie, she was already writing fictional stories...

"..and then i realized that i'm running out of oxygen in my tank, i can't continue to explore the beauty underwater any further..but then again, that's the beauty of it..."

2.

jess - asks leslie about what her parents do.

leslie - they work at home, they're both writers.

jess - makes a conclusion saying that that explains how leslie is good at writing

leslie - "your father works at a hardware store, but do you know anything about hardware?"

jess - "no"

leslie - stresses that, it's not about your parents that makes you who you are. it's you, yourself.

Neat. And they have their own tree house, which they rebuild and decorate together. It becomes their secret hideout after school everyday. Kewl. No one bothers.

Both of them develop, not only some quality playtime but also quality things to talk about. They don't have to be engaged in kind of formal discussion like a session in the class, they were just talking while walking in the forest or sitting in their tree house, very spontaneous..(my type of best original screenplay in a movie)

And then there was a part where they wrote a false love letter, pretending to be the coolest boy in school for this girl-bully everybody hates (she imposed a dollar for the girls to use the toilet).

This really made me smile as i used to write false love letter to a girl in school whom we dislike the most when i was just about their age too. I was really enjoying the movie..

Until the girl died. Tragic accident.

Then begins the part where the boy had to deal with the sudden loss..back to being alone..no one to talk to..she was not there sitting beside him in the school bus..she was not there behind him jumping from the school bus..their tree house suddenly looked 'dead'..he shouted for her in the forest..couldn't take the loss..he squeezed the colour pastels she gave him for his birthday in the river which took her life..everything seemed to be unreal..like the very brief week they spent together was like a dream...this part really strike me..as i said, i was really beginning to enjoy the movie..Damn, i was really enjoying watching their friendship and it really hit me when they had to kill the character. I felt the loss too. Amazing. I can't remember the last time a movie has such impact on me. I am sure glad i watched this movie.

Read on the comments and see how many people are really touched and actually cried over this movie. Gosh, people are gonna remember this movie, for real.

http://imdb.com/title/tt0398808/

It's the brief moment that they have made me wonder, what am i doing here at work? blank. and i certainly don't feel content. is it just the nature of being human, not to feel content? but it's not that i want more. i just don't feel it and i wanna do something else.