Many of us are too busy trying to work some kind of magic with certain stranger(s) to make him/her become part of our lives as our spouse. Target, focus, aim, shoot. I want to make that person, whom is a total stranger, mine.

It's rather funny considering all the things we would do, of how much time, depth and complexity of our emotions, we spend on developing and maintaining our relationship with that significant stranger.

- we spend more quality time with him/her
- if something would go wrong with that stranger, we would throw tantrums over the slightest thing or even nothing at all to other people who already love us unconditionally (unlike that stranger) how very ungrateful, spoilt little bastards we are
- our face lit up in the presence of the stranger but we'd feel indifference around those who already love us unconditionally...ready to show our tantrums because that stranger is not around us instead.

Seriously. I am fucking. sick. of the people. who terlalu sibuk, melebih-lebihkan segala boyfriend, girlfriend sampai yg simple tasks as described below pun tak boleh nak buat. in fact, tak terasa nak buat langsung. terlalu bodo. tak reti nak appreciate the unconditional love given to them by other people selain daripada orang yang asing tu. yg dia dok siboooookkkk sangat dgn masalah frequency dengan orang asing tu so boleh align dengan frequency dia baru boleh panggil boyfren/girlfren. benda yang patut focus, yang jadi tanggungjawab, tak jalan. tu lah org kata, yang dikejar tak dapat, yg dikendong keciciran. jangan sampai orang2 yang sayang hang dah tak peduli pasai hang, hang baru nak sedaq what's actually important in your bloody life.

bila boyfren tak dak, girlfren tak dak..gatai gado sikit ka, rasa mcm semua org lain bloodyfool menyemak ja dlm hidop dia. pantang tegoq sikit. tak boleh nak buat lawak sikit, mula la nk melenting. jangan jadi haram jadah mcm ni.

RENUNGKAN BERSAMA...................................

Bila seronok, aku cari....pasanganku
-Bila sedih, aku cari....Mak
-Bila berjaya, aku ceritakan pada....pasanganku
-Bila gagal, aku ceritakan pada....Mak
-Bila bahagia, aku peluk erat....pasanganku
-Bila berduka, aku peluk erat....Emakku
-Bila nak bercuti, aku bawa....pasanganku
-Bila sibuk, aku hantar anak ke rumah....Mak
-Bila sambut valentine.. Aku bagi hadiah pada pasanganku
-Bila sambut hari ibu...aku cuma dapat ucapkan "Selamat Hari Ibu"
-Selalu.. aku ingat pasanganku
-Selalu.. Mak ingat kat aku
-Bila-bila.. . aku akan talipon pasanganku
-Entah bila... aku nak talipon Mak
-Selalu...aku belikan hadiah untuk pasanganku
-Entah bila... aku nak belikan hadiah untuk Emak
-Renungkan:
-"Kalau kau sudah habis belajar dan berkerja...
-bolehkah kau kirim wang untuk Mak?
-Mak bukan nak banyak... lima puluh ringgit sebulan pun cukuplah".

-Berderai air mata jika kita mendengarnya. .......

-Tapi kalau Mak sudah tiada....... ...
-MAKKKKK...RINDU MAK.... RINDU SANGAT....

-Berapa ramai yang sanggup menyuapkan ibunya.... -berapa ramai yang sanggup mencuci muntah ibunya..... -berapa ramai yang sanggup. mengantikan lampin ibunya..... -berapa ramai yang sanggup..... membersihkan najis ibunya...... . -berapa ramai yang sanggup..... .. membuang ulat dan membersihkan luka kudis ibunya.... -berapa ramai yang sanggup berhenti kerja untuk menjaga ibunya..... -Dan akhir sekali berapa ramai yang sembahyang JENAZAH ibunya......

I've admitted, I suck at showing my affections to those i love and care about. But for those who noticed, I would shower my affections with materials. i buy things. i want them to be happy with gifts. this is the way i show my affection. something you will have to deal with. if some cannot appreciate anything that is me, then i would stop eventually, without hesitation. after all, why waste? i am not buying anyone's affection. it's your loss.